DEB

Today 24 years ago I remember you dad, A sweet memory of you I have It was a day before my birthday And I was waiting for your call That day the weather seemed gloomy and sad And I wondered why I was excited for it was my birthday the next day, And new red dress I had brought All of sudden there was a down pour of rain Which lasted only five minutes and Then there was sun shine again What a funny weather I thought But that kept me thinking For on my way to college I was, And it wetted my dress From college I returned a little late Hoping to receive your call I was too shocked for the call I got was not that from you to say Happy Birthday But a call from my aunt To say, that you had passed away. Alas it was too late for, You had left me alone in this world And had gone to live in a better place to another world alone. May your soul rest in peace dearest dad After all these years this poem to you I dedicate May you rest peacefully in that world of yours And to thee I pray may you always ...

T’was that day Time flew by for us, We went in different ways, We spoke from time to time And kept in touch on email But we had never seen each other after that unfateful day. Today after 20 odd years I see a picture of you, A tear comes to my eyes My heart is filled with emotions And all the past memories came alive I turned cold and stood still staring at the picture in my hand You had changed so much from what I had seen, You look so sad and laden with life’s burdens And no smile on your face I just keep staring at the picture And wondering if it is really you? Its funny how my mind is disturbed And memories of you keep flooding back to me For my heart still yearns for you You were my first love then, And nothing could stop me from loving you I missed you yesterday I missed you today And always will as long as we are apart.

In a hurry I write In a hurry I make a mistake In a hurry I post it on my page In a hurry I forget to mention the Title In a hurry I wrote what came to my mind But I forgot to mention the most important lines That in a hurry I wrote An forgot to post what I had written.

This moment I thought I'd write a line or two, but my brain box is not working and I don't know what to do. My mind seems blank and I have run out of words, I have run out of thoughts, I have run out of everything. This moment I want to say something But I cannot seem to open my mouth the words don't come easy and I just don't know what to do. This moment I hear the phone ringing And I want to say Hello, but I cannot seem to reach the phone, for everything seems so far away in spite of it being so near. I wake up from this funny dream at this Moment , I am happy to be writing what I am doing.

Like the wave of an ocean So cool & yet so calm I was drawn towards you, You were like a magnet Drawing me closer to you Like the wave that sweeps The sand into the sea You swept me of my feet And locked me in the ocean of your love, It was a tidal lust and that passion and emotions That came wave after wave. We were laughing, playing and enjoying The game of love in our life The illusions of love were so exciting That I was submerged in your love. But was is that unfateful day When an ill wind blew my love away I felt ripped like the angry sea And was torn into two I stand deeply submerged in love Not knowing where to go or what to do? Was it a Tidal Love?

Sometimes, I guess I can be creative, but just sometimes Sometimes, I feel on top of the world, Sometimes, I feel like I'm all alone, Sometimes, my life is spiraling out of control, Sometimes, my heart, I swear stops beating, Sometimes, my heart is so full it could burst, Sometimes, I feel like I've got it under control, sometimes I just dont want to talk to anyone sometimes I dont want to hear anything sometimes I cant do anything right Sometimes I want to laugh Sometimes I want to cry Sometimes I want to live Sometimes I want to die Sometimes when I am sad and I watch the wind sway reeds by the water And there are days I feel exhausted Almost like I have been combusted But that’s only sometimes

Behind the locked door was once a house that had seen the sunshine of many different years. a house that had seen some happiness a house that had seen tears. This lovely house now seems so empty Since you left with last goodbyes. The smiles and talk, the happy laughs Echo above the lonely sighs Whether leaves are green in springtime snow leaves lightly on the ground This old house will hold the memories behind the locked door.